My band is playing tonight in Kihei. There's a couple in our fan base who's son was killed in that theater; like a true hero, he was shot when he jumped in front of his girlfriend to protect her...literally took a bullet for her. Despite whatever impression you might have of me from my online demeanor, the fact is that I don't deal with this sort of thing well. I get extremely angry while simultaneously feeling overly compassionate towards those who suffer a loss. I can't stand feeling helpless to do anything about things like this...turning back the clock or giving warnings or defense...life does not have comic book solutions. I'm not real sure I'm going to be able to maintain composure onstage. If i'm lucky I'll zone out and my hands will go on autopilot. Still, I'm thinking that I should take a pair of the dark teashades...just in case.