Terrell has never not cared about his teammates. Terrell suffers from depression and social anxiety. He says that in San Francisco his teammates mistook his shyness for arrogance and treated him thusly. He was a young guy and instead of seeking counseling, he publicly turned into the guy his teammates thought that he was. Men are hard on each other and it's even worse in a locker room. Terrell couldn't tell his 49er teammates that he had social anxiety and depression. This obnoxious persona was created in response to social pressure from teammates. The McNabb fiasco is finally starting to heal. Again, it was a case of 2 personalities misunderstanding one another. Those emotions were real. Terrell blames himself for losing this game. He was trying to say that it wasn't Tony or Jess' fault that the game was lost. Tony is a cool guy who recognized Terrell's issues and was able to navigate through to him. Seriously, all the loud mouth, selfish behavior is an act to distract from the real man. Imagine being a 16 year old guy and find out that your neighbor is your Dad! This man lived across the street from you, spoke to you if he saw you in the yard but never even made an effort to even be in your life! As a kid, you internalize that and wonder why you weren't good enough to be wanted as his son. The adult Terrell is still living with those emotions.